Why I Hate Alcoholism!

Hello!  This is my first blog on The Anonymous Alcoholic and let me tell you straight up… I hate alcoholism!  After being married to an active alcoholic for 8 years who found sobriety 5 years before his death in 2006, and now living with my 26-yr-old son who is an alcoholic, I am sick of this disease.

Alcoholism destroys not only a person’s mind and body, but also their self-esteem, self-respect, and their families as well.  This disease causes people to lie, cheat, and steal to support their need to drink alcohol.   The alcohol itself affects different alcoholics in different ways.  My first husband was a quiet drunk, just happy go lucky.  My second husband was an annoying, in-your-face, didn’t give a shit, talk talk talk kind of drunk.  He only got violent if he went into a blackout, which just happened a couple of times while we were married.  My son is a sit in his room, play video games, and silently drink himself to death kind of drunk.  But I can tell immediately if he’s had any alcohol just by the look on his face and the way he speaks.

I see this disease trying to take over my handsome, smart, funny son’s life and I am powerless to do anything about it.  Oh, sure, I can try to control his drinking for him, and have on occasion.  But that is just prolonging the inevitable.  Unless God chooses to get a hold of him and heal him of this disease like he did my 2nd husband, it will take my son hitting rock bottom before he’s willing to accept help and stay sober.   That scares me.   That’s why I hate alcoholism…